Sleepa heavy head,
dense with the fog of desire,
no time for the ultimate weight lifting moment,
only expectations of pressing on.
my eyes fall with inability
temptation to take a chance,
refresh with the slightest passing in time,
release the day,
join the dream,
allow the darkness to consume
with this sleep I take flight.
LiesGlimpses of my past
Swarm into my present
Leaving this head of mine up n the air.
How could I be so naive?
How could I allow this manipulation?
Proven me to be a fool once already
You sucked me in and made me again.
How, after so long
Could you possible believe
Even for a minute
That I'd ever be ok with being your second best?
You lied to me
With every answer you gave.
Made me believe you were available for my heart
So in return I made my heart available for you
Then silence followed
And the truth came out
And the memories of our once love AFFAIR
Engulfed this head of mine
And made me relive what you've already put me through.
Together or not
Even if friends we were still
The lies you've told me wouldn't fly.
And had you just been straight with me
My friendship you might still have.
All I feel is anger,
And it's directed at myself.
I made the choice to allow you in,
And opened myself up to hurt.
Advantage of that you did take,
For reasons still unknown to me.
So from now on
A Diamond in the RoughOne day I'll be the rock I wish to be
Solid and beautiful
Bright and wondrous
For now, fresh out of the quarry
I am a diamond in the rough
I have my fair share of imperfections
I'm no more above mistakes than the next
But I love who I am
And I live to be all I can be
As of now a diamond in the rough
I work on those imperfections
Learning from each mistake
I grow steady and strong
Chiseling away the bad one facet at a time
Until I am no longer a diamond in the rough